feb 10th, 2026

update, i have an annoying ass cough. i wanna add some new stuff to my website. nothing interesting has been happening recently. blehhh. okay so i js failed my math quiz... my skin is so gross. i wanna stop picking so i can be pretty. im biting the skin off my lips, theres crusty sores at the corner of my mouth, im bleeding, i look pretty bad.

feb 9th, 2026

hello everynyan, i am so sleepy and tired today. im sick and i js wanna sleep. my bf dodnt wake up to his alarm AGAIN. ive been getting into royal high. i wantnsleep.............. pweaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i gen cant keep my eyes open, goodnighy chst

feb 6th, 2026

sooo yesterday i got in my first school fight since 6th grade... this kid was telling me to kms and js saying rly mean things so i kinda freaked out. i got oss for the whole day. i shouldve stayed calm but he was harassing my bf too which is not okay. ive been pretty stressed and dissociative recently. i feel better with my mom and bf tho! ive been watching omori gameplay and it is rly cool and im kinda obsessed. im rly into jfashion and jpop rn. ive been working on coding a lot. um yeah ig thats it, see ya!

jan 14th, 2026

ive been picking my skin a LOT recently. its rly bad n it hurts. i brought my sketchbook to skewl 2day and so far i havent been picking! i joined a discord sever and ive already made 2 friends and theyre really nice! im friends with hailey (haileyepic3) and i think shes rly kewl but the server she invited me to says the n word a lot... also theres a lot of ppl with skinny waists and i dont want that to affect me. theyre also js not rly nice on that server... so yaaa ive been coding all day long in school everyday. ik its not healthy but yeah. im in the play at school and i have to dance and that reminds me i have to work out bc im rly weak. i need some muscle lolz.

jan 7th, 2026

hyeeeeeee amm back from my breakkkk... ill talk more later cuz im falling askeep baiiiii

dec 13th, 2025

hai everynyan! im on my break rn (im cramming for finals). im super stressed. i nevr have to do homework over the weekend.
yesterday i went to see fnaf 2 in theatres with my friends and it was SOOO good!!!! im rly sad that michael was so ugly. the theatre was fun bc it was js teenagers so we were like making farting noises when it was quiet and like screaming late after a jumpscare. it was like the minecraft movie part 2 lmao!

dec 8th, 2025

I feel like ever since I came back from my Thanksgiving trip, everything has been so weird. Marshall doesn’t feel the same, my room doesn’t feel the same, I don’t feel the same, and I’ve been doing worse in school. I’ve even been thinking about hurting myself. I don’t know what is going on because I’ve been so happy for so long and I’m sad now. I have everything in the world. I don’t have a reason to be upset. I failed my biology test today that I’ve been studying for for three days. I feel like sometimes no matter how hard I try, I’m always gonna fail.

dec 1st, 2025

i can feel everything all at once.
its in my ears, in my eye cavities. i cannot see. i do not have eyes. i have black string twisting and twisting pulling out the guts. i rub hot coal into my empty eye sockets. burn. i feel dead. but i feel alive when im with you. am i a ghost? am i just pretending? am i really happy? or is this just another fascade? there are fish swimming through the place where my chest is supposed to be. they stab me as they swim through. i love fish, so why does it hurt me so greatly? why cant i live without myself hurting myself?

one bad thing happens and my entire day is ruined. i am the opposite of resiliant. i am NOT strong, nor brave. i am a coward. i avoid everything. i cheat my way through my life. i talk about my mental health and trauma as if its a joke. why do i do that? theres something so irreversably wrong with me. i dont understand how anyone could stand being near the stench of my lies and dishonesty. i believed i was a good person but now im not sure i was meant to be. i want to be good. but the thorns have wrapped around my limbs once again. they pull me. i can feel my arms began to stretch in to different directions. the thorns dig and scrape as they pull. i probably look pretty like this. how messed up is that? i like to hurt. im so fucking fucked up.

nov 17th, 2025

guess who got a home run... this girl did!!! WOOHOO!!! ive been doing very good in school recently! the only thing is that coding is starting to take up a lot of my time and its becoming a bit too much...i might need a break. i love yall!!!!